Today was like .. wow. Depending on how i look at things. Kinda bad and unfruitful. Kinda scolded by my cgl. Quite a heavy one. But i'm glad she did. Or else i wouldnt know all this mistakes i did. Sometimes i'm thinking that its i'm not making the effort to stand in the gap. But i duno when's the right time to do so.. and if should i do so in put it in another way. Its like a wake up call, that could change all thats ahead of me. I remeber what uerwen told mi yesterday while on the way back home. God wouldnt let me go another level of an area of my life in which a problem existed and i didnt clear and conquer it. I feel that my cgl and God really made it clear for me, practically pointed and magnified out my problems. I remember jus now as i was talking to art. He told me lotsa stuff.. and he said things are the way in which i look at. The way i look at things results in the way things turn out to be. Maybe all this while i'm having the wrong attitude to see things. Thats why i'm unfruitful and not contributing. I suddenly remembered God once told me this next two years of my life dpeneing on how i react to challangers and moulding will determine wad i'm be next time. But i'm pretty sure i'm wont b discouraged by this. Because right now i'm feeling better. Because i'm looking things on the positive side. And the only thing to do right now is to make things happen. And i gota change myself, and its only myself that can change my attitude. I'll give myself 2 months. And within this 2 months, i expect myself to change, correct all that grace told me today.